Sunday, July 09, 2006

Big baby. Sad Mama. And a whole bunch of sillyness.

Owen and I walked to the health clinic today. I wanted a walk, and hadn't weighed him there for a while, so off we went. He is now 19lbs! Wow! No wonder my back is out and my body aches when I carry him in his car sweat. It must weigh clos to 40lbs with him in there. No more of that sillyness.

I am feeling quite depressed lately. I am sick of other parents judging me, and comparing my kid to theirs. Of course Owen isn't walking yet - he's 5 months old! Sheesh! I sometimes feel like I'm missing something. Or forgetting something. I feel like I should be doing something more for Owen. I don't know what. I don't know why. I just hope I'm doing everything ok for him, and that he turns out alright. Maybe I feel this way because I have the easiest kid in the world, and any other kid would be taking up a lot of my time with crying, or walking him to sleep, or pulling my hair out. Shrug.

Owen can almost sit up by himself. Correction - Owen can sit up by himself for a very short period of time. Say 3-4 seconds. And then he falls to one side, or backward, or forwards. Usually to one side or the other. But he is almost there. Within the nxt few weeks he will be able to sit up on his own, supporting his upper body all by himself, for any period of time he so deems. I think. I hope. I'm pretty sure.

Sigh. I feel very intimitated by being a first time Mom. I need to stop second guessing myself and let my Mommy self-confidence take over.

12 comments:

Kaelen's Mama said...

YUP! Stop Second guessing yourself! You're a great Mom! Owen is perfect! But........I know how you feel! I wish people would keep their comments to themselves sometimes! ie."Wow she really doesn't have any hair" One of these days I'm just going to respond with "No Sh#t you're kidding me old lady"

myn said...

You are a fabulous Mum!!! Your son is happy, healthy and adores you. Relax and enjoy him...ignore other people...their ignorance and bad manners are their issue and not a reflection of your parenting.

Rowena Hartley said...

I went through the same thing with mine... he was always big (and he looked old) so people expected him to be more advanced than he was. Now that my son's three and a half I get people thinking he's two!

Bekah said...

Why is it that people..strangers...always have to give their two cents! I was in the store the other day, and I had my two yougest with me and this old guy came up to me and patted me on the shoulder and said "It'll get easier". The boys weren't even making a fuss right then... they were just sitting there. I dunno if I looked tired or what but I just looked at him and smiled and said thanx and walked away. My "advice" to you is to listen politely to people who want to tell you stuff, and take what makes sense to you. People just want to help you out. Think about how you want Owen to be when he's three, and start teaching him how to do that, Like sleeping scheduals, and stuff. ok ok enough advice... I love ya hon. I'd love to come over and hang out, but you're a little bit of a drive away. We will get there some time. If you are ever in Kamloops again, let me know I'll meet you there :)

myn said...

if it makes you feel better people comment about me...to my face. and i have no baby. i ALWAYS get "wow...you're tall!" THANKS!!! i hadn't noticed that at all. no wonder pants are always kinda short! morons!!!

Anonymous said...

You are SUPER MOM and don't let anyone get in the way of your parenting! Second guessing yourself is just a way for you to continuley grow as a persona and a parent. You may feel fine doing some things today with Owen that you wont do next week or with your next child and that is totally ok. Our parents before us had only half the information we have today and we turned out pretty damn good! Keep absorbing any and all information that people give you and only use what works for you and your family. We can't all have perfect kids but some of us are pretty close...

Corinne said...

Well, 6 other people have already said this to you but I guess I'll chime in and be the 7th. I haven't even had the opportunity to meet Owen yet (besides in-utero) and I know that you are a great mom! All kids do things at their own pace, don't let other people intimidate you! Owen will sit, walk, talk, etc, etc when HE is ready. Not when you or anyone else thinks that it is the right timing. I have a friend whose daughter didn't really talk until she was three and people were very concerned. Now she is never quiet. In her own time! Keep on loving Owen, praying for him and enjoying God's gift to you! I'm looking forward to seeing you. . .

Catrina said...

I totally agree with "Bargen family" Enough said :)

Kassianni said...

you have a beautiful healthy, happy boy.

trust your instincts. they're good.
you're a great mom.

Anonymous said...

Hi Amy! Don't worry one little bit about people comparing their kid to yours. Yours is happy and healthy, what more do you need! You love him, he probably likes you a lot (mine still doesn't say 'love', but we're pretty sure he's fond of us).

You guys are good parents, you love your child ... who cares what lamesauce people say.

love and stuff,
Jae

Joe, Stacey, Joshua, James and Matthew said...

I am in agreement with everyone else who has posted on here. I'm sure I told you the story of the photographer who yelled at Joshua when he was 7 WEEKS OLD to sit up! Some people are ignorant and want to share it with the world! :P

Joshua, too, has always been a big boy and I was getting those same sitting/walking comments at about 5 months too. Now that he's 13 months and just starting to walk I want to hear them say things about his developement. I would not just sit back and listen anymore! *L*

You are a wonderful Mom and Owen is an amazing little boy! Don't forget that!!!

Amy said...

Thanks you guys. I've had an especially hard week as Owen is teething, and I hate to see him in so much pain. I really appreciate all your kind words. And your advice. Thank you so much for being so supportive!